A new year for new things, right? I looked at this journal and I started it almost exactly a year ago. 2014 - what a year you were. A year of reflection and decision making for the future? A year to discover I want to be with men? Most importantly to me, a year to discover that the decision to be with men is okay, and that they aren't all assholes. All of that realization took far more trust and energy than ever expected. Although, I'm not sure I had any idea what to expect, really.
I think half my distractions in life come from insecurities. More than half, I'm almost sure. And by almost sure, I mean I am definitely sure. I'm so wrapped up in my head that it only gets harder to start a flow and put my thoughts on paper. I used to have such a groove for this - for writing - what happened to that?
I miss feeling invisible and blending in. I miss being in a place that had no distractions and felt like home.
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