I'm fucking up. And I know I am. I didn't finish papers for class today and I didn't even show up for class as result. I'm sleeping with a married woman and right now I'm drinking a glass of wine before work because I need my mind to calm down a little bit.
School is overwhelming for me. I feel like I only know how to set myself up to fail. my anxiety takes over and I throw in the towel before it even begins. Before I even begin to try, that is. I'm starting to feel like the world is spinning out from under me - or at least that it's spinning so fast I can no longer make out a clean image of the pictures and sounds around me. Am I crazy? Seriously. What is going on? Sometimes it feels like I never have a grip...on anything. At least not on the "everything" in my that I feel like I should be in control of.
I need to make focus possible - whether it be yoga or a trip to the doctor or both. I can't allow myself to slip anymore. I have too many good things going on for me.
School is overwhelming for me. I feel like I only know how to set myself up to fail. my anxiety takes over and I throw in the towel before it even begins. Before I even begin to try, that is. I'm starting to feel like the world is spinning out from under me - or at least that it's spinning so fast I can no longer make out a clean image of the pictures and sounds around me. Am I crazy? Seriously. What is going on? Sometimes it feels like I never have a grip...on anything. At least not on the "everything" in my that I feel like I should be in control of.
I need to make focus possible - whether it be yoga or a trip to the doctor or both. I can't allow myself to slip anymore. I have too many good things going on for me.
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