I'm exhausted right now. I want to be naked on a beach somewhere, being blinded by the sun.
I've been up far too late and far too early this entire week. I'm happy to get back into a routine that starts in the early morning, though. It feels good to have the entire day ahead of you.I'm starting to realize how captivated I get by the sky and the nature around me. I've always appreciated it but lately I could stare up at the sky for hours, just thinking... or even just breathing. I think my body and my mind are finally calming down; finally finding some peace within my own self. I've been reading this book on mindfulness and the importance of breath and meditation. I haven't read much but I'm soaking it up. Everything can be brought back to your breath. As soon as my mind starts to stray, it remembers to instantly listen to my breathing. The focus takes all my distractions away. Maybe this could be a natural remedy for ADD. Regardless, listening to my breath throws my mind into perspective. It calms me. It really does remind you that life truly is not that serious. Not to say life doesn't have value or that things don't hold importance...but this is all temporary.
A lot of the woes and stress in every day life can make people so rigid at times. We turn ourselves into robots voluntarily - at times without any awareness at all. I like living simply. I don't want to own a lot of things. I love that I have this undeniable freedom that could take me wherever I want to go. That's incredible. I wish I could remind everyone to breathe. When it feels like someone's world is crashing down - or even my own - we just need to remember to keep breathing. At one point in time none of this even existed. We didn't even exist. And someday that time will come again. Life can seem so long at times, as if our lifespan is the eternity of the world. But really it's gone in the blink of an eye.
Everything is temporary and nothing is permanent. I suppose that could sound gloomy at times. It's not meant to be; at all. I'm just coming into this realization and this comfort that my life is meant to be lived well and happily. It's not meant to fill a glass or be the "American dream" - which really holds no substance anyway. Life is actually meant to be lived. Yes I get the importance of being a dutiful citizen in this society but I also understand we created such things; like money. I HATE money. But we created it. And now it's a necessary means for the world we have made for ourselves. Some things you just can't get around. I mean, I'll be realistic...I'm not saying I wish money had never been created...well, maybe I am. But that's a world which is unfathomable to me as it seems our world spins better for those who have full wallets. We've created such a system. We're all in it. I just wish people would take the time to realize that before this system was in place people lived purely to survive. I guess we still live to survive but we no longer live to survive in our hearts. It seems like now everyone lives to survive on paper, in the media, in the news, in the gossip at the dinner table.
It's not that serious. We're missing something here, missing the point of actually living and breathing and remembering that every single one of us will come and go. Everyone single one of us will die someday. And others will be born. They will live their lives and carve their footprint and then they too will die. I would hate for my life to be spent in a struggle to continuously "keep up."
There is no person here that has more stance than others. We're all human. We were all given this incredible gift to live a life on this earth. Not all of us have been given the opportunity to live it freely and that doesn't make any sense to me. It never has and I am certain it never will. We all have heartbeats and blood running through our veins. We all get hungry, we all need to sleep. We're all just human. The ground we walk on does not belong to anyone. It's simply here for everyone.
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