When things are new and scary I could almost instantly burst into a huge river of tears. Maybe not because I am depressed and unhappy but because I have the molding of my life at my fingertips. And sometimes that realization shuts me down, scares me off and leaves me feeling so small in a world so big.
Being able to grasp that idea, that the molding of life is at my fingertips, seems like it should be glorious and heaven-sent. I understand this so why am I so afraid? Fear will never win me over and stop me from moving forward so why am I so scared of everything right now?
I want a teacher. I want to soak up someones wisdom, advice, teachings. I want to learn from someone else's knowledge. I want to be taught and I want to learn. I want to excel and master something that has always intimidated me. I want to grow.
I want to be ambitious and tackle all of these things. I am confident in myself that with time I will. But before that journey begins, I just wish I could be held. I want someone to wrap my arms around and someone to wrap their arms around me...to be told that it is all okay. I miss that touch.
Being able to grasp that idea, that the molding of life is at my fingertips, seems like it should be glorious and heaven-sent. I understand this so why am I so afraid? Fear will never win me over and stop me from moving forward so why am I so scared of everything right now?
I want a teacher. I want to soak up someones wisdom, advice, teachings. I want to learn from someone else's knowledge. I want to be taught and I want to learn. I want to excel and master something that has always intimidated me. I want to grow.
I want to be ambitious and tackle all of these things. I am confident in myself that with time I will. But before that journey begins, I just wish I could be held. I want someone to wrap my arms around and someone to wrap their arms around me...to be told that it is all okay. I miss that touch.
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